new start

so heres the scoop on my life so far..

im moving to miami i cant wait

me and one of best friends have been talking about this move for a minute now

& we're finally going i can't wait. a new start a fresh start this should be fun and interesting

:)

until next time...

thats my update :)

let these thoughts bleed.

i've been writing for a minute now & it never seems like i could ever run out of the things to write about. i've been feeling for a minute now & it never seems like i could ever run out feelings & emotions to hurt from. i've been thinking & it never seems like i could ever run out of thoughts. i've been pumping this blood through my veins for a minute now & it never seems like i could ever run out of this blood that runs through my veins no matter how many times i've bled. i've been making mistakes for a minute now & it never seems like there won't ever be another one made. so this time, let's pretend the world is my mother and i have fallen. please, please just let me bleed my words, feelings, thoughts, & mistakes so i can heel on my own & on my own time.

where do i start? the beginning or the end? it all never makes sense no matter what point you start from. i just know i want it out and off of my chest. there are so many things that go on in my world, my life, that no one knows about. you know they say the best secrets are kept in books. you put a book down & the only way to know what's going on in the world of those pages are by picking it up and reading it. yet, no one ever has the "time" or "patience" to do so. this is my book. these are my secrets.

i've been in love & i think im almost sure its hurting to admit this. at the moment i have tears washing the skin on my face. for something to hurt it sure is cleansing. it feels good and hurts at the same time. idk what to think honestly, im soo lost right now. anyhow i would consider myself a strong minded person when it comes to falling for a person and opening up and letting them in my world. a lot of people can claim they know me but it's only one who can really say he knows me & can tell me anything and i can & will believe it. for some reason im continuously thinking of this person and seeing from a distance what goes on in his world from a distance.. what to do about this but try and forget and let go.. but how when there's no one who i feel can make me feel the happiness he gives to me. it's a gift almost when im around him.. it's like the morning the snow first falls and a childs first snow angel. it's special. it's rare. it's once in a life time for me. love isn't promised to no one but when it comes hold on to it for dear life. im such a rock its crazy i can't break down for or over no one i can't feel for no one but myself but when the tears wash his face like they do mine it's almost as if they do for me too. idk if that makes any sense but thats the best way i can explain it. im doing my best to let go and move on but its hard when you've never had or is rare to have. does anyone else understand..

just let me fall
just let me bleed
just let me learn.

love life.
love you.
me.

.. its been ..

so it's been a good minute.. actually, it's been about a week and a half since i've been at school.
WAIT! don't jump on my neck just yet. i was missing school to get money to pay my bills..
power was off.. but we're back on top :) new couch microwave George Foreman grill trash can etc...

anyhow, so today i had an interview with abercombie & fitch!
that was exciting! lol. hopefully i get the post i applied for.
later on today i will go back and apply for another position just to be on the safe side.

so i have anywhere from a week to two weeks before finding out if i am hired for the position.

well its been just about 60+ plus days and i haven't heard from the guy that left my house (from this day) 60+ days ago to find himself in an orange, gray, blue, or white uniform.. ugghh im going to be as patient as i can... i mean they do say those who wait get more than what they expected.
LMFAO ok they don't say that exactly but i did so yeah lol ..

anyhow .. im off to bed.. turning it in kind of early tonight (2:07am) im going to school tomorrow!

goodnight ppl

09.23.09

so todays my bday..
im officially 20..
no more of being in the teen years..
and still i have yet to really figure out just what it is i want to do.
my choices are: strokers (strip klub in atl) house night klub (in atl)
or join some ppl as they surprise me with whatever they have in store..

oh and remember i expected to be "wifed" up by now..
however, i am not.. still :( sad right? i know..

anyhow.. the day was ruff..
sadly, i had to "go there" with someone from my school whom i was helping out
on top of that.. as i said earlier, it's my bday and i have NOTHING to do..
the guy im oh so in like with is in jail (sucky) and he cant have any visitation..
nor can he make calls out.. :( what a birthday right...

so im on the Internet, as usual, and i see someone has posted on their status (fb)
that lil boosie is locked up (or turning himself in) for charges of a gun and possession of marijuana
and with good behavior he can get out with only serving a year though he was sentenced 2.

oh other news... my KHLOE (KHLO$) IS GETING MARRIED!!!
the wedding will be held at a closed location (I KNOW WHERE). . .

anyhow.. moving on to a new story...
how was everyone else day.. ?

today the weather was perfect
yesterday it was hurricane Katrina
and today it was perfect wth?!!!
ga weather is wakk..

oh went to this restaurant yesterday and filled out an application
hopefully they hire me.. the guy said he would give me a call back but i know
with restaurants you have to keep calling to let them know you want the job
so thats what i will be doing and thats what i did today.. wellll i called only twice
but that was between the slow hours so the guy told me that he would give me a call tomorrow
and if he didnt for me to call him.. bests believe i will.. :)

uhhgg feel like im talking to much..
this ends this post.. :)

goodnight!

ps..

HAPPY BDAY ME !!! IM 20!

MY CLOSURE

im ending my rainy night with this post.

i seem to be restless at the moment.
so when i close the l.top screen, i'll just lay here until my dreams are 3d.
i cant seem to get this guy off of my mind its like my every thought is him.
me wondering what hes wondering what im wondering and so on..

well,
listening to keyshia cole - you complete me.
goodnight world.

& THIS IS HOW IM FEELING.

at the moment i am listening to anthony hamilton.
its raining. there are 3 more days until my 20th bday.
by now i expected to be "wifed" up with a guy who has my undivided attention.
& im not. there air is going on and off (set to auto) in my apartment.
listening to that the rain and this music is keeping me calm.
for a second i was going insane about this one guy who left my house 50 days ago.
& yes that makes me sound a little crazy, however i only know because now he is
incarcerated 45 minutes away from me.
sitting here wondering why he hasn't called or text since the day he left,
comes to find out he was arrested moments after leaving my house.
he's been looking to get in some kind of contact with me.
he did.
the drug of joy ran through my blood stream.
"sometimes in life you run across a love unknown without a reason it seems like you belong" - anthony hamilton.

the rain has stopped.
the air is off.
the music is still playing.
and im sitting in bed alone.
i just want him back, i have a strong feeling he is my other half.

so, i have 5 more months left until i am done with school.
im anxiously waiting for the day to come and a teacher tells me how many hours i have left.
hours that will be completed in a day or two. uggh.
the great feeling of accomplishing yet another task that someone strongly doubted me on.

you want to know a funny thing?
so i have this ex that i once dated in highschool..
not that many years ago lol.
i express to him what i was thinking were my true and final feelings
and you know what he does?
tells me hes not worth my tears.
probably because his heart was somewhere else.
not because he ever done me wrong or was pathetic.
because none of those describe him.
kind of hurts to know that the person you have these types of feelings for
dont have them in return. idk what to think, say, or how to feel about that.
im so lost and confused., but i cant help nor control another persons emotions.
its only right that i learn to let him go.
& i have because im waiting patiently on who i believe is my other half.
& while doing so, i cant let my past get in the way of my possible future.

just my feelings im updating you all on.
hope you enjoyed me sharing my story with you all.

(post updated pics in a few.)

JUST AN UPDATE

HEYYY EVERYONE, THIS IS JUST AN UPDATE ..


I KNOW IVE BEEN GONE FOR QUITE SOMETIME ..
DIDNT MEAN TO KEEP YOU ALL WAITING ..

ANYWHO, LETS SEE WHATS NEW ..
PAST MY FRESHMAN FINAL EXIT EXAM I AM NOT A SENIOR IN COSMETOLOGY
WHICH MEANS IM CLOSER TO GRADUATING YAYY ME!

HM, ... NEW HAIR STYLE LIKE EVERYWEEK, WELL THATS NOTHING NEW
BASICALLY NOTHING IS NEW LOL.. SCHOOL HOME OUT SCHOOL AND SO ON ..


OHHHHH WAIT,
YEA I MET THIS KID NAMED HOLLYWOOD..
HM, BASICALLY BOMB.

WELL, THERE WILL OF COURSE BE MORE POST FOR NOW ON ...


LETS DO THIS AGAIN SOMETIME,
FENDIIBBY xo.

PS:
---
HEY SINCE IVE BEEN GONE SO LONG HOW ABOUT YALL TELL ME WHAT IVE BEEN MISSING
WHATS THE LATEST ON YOU? :)

have yu ever

Its been a while since I last posted.. Been going through some things & the break was much needed.

Have yu ever been addicted to something with no taste no sound no smell just a soft strong structured feeling just features that would blow you away? Have yu ever been in a room with a person & every time yu make eye contact yu giggle have yu ever felt that liddle tingley feeling inside when being around someone yu halfway knw but knw somehow yu have the most feelings for.. Have yu ever wondered what it is that cause a person to fall for another even when they half way knw each other.. Is that what "love at first site" means?..

Schools been good lately there are 3 or 2 more weeks until I'm out on the floor working with clients & giving my cards out to possibly new clients.. I kant wait! Everything is just falling into place & I knw this is happening bc I have 3 angels watching over me!

Short poem:
For a second I almost got to the point of no return.. Just kept kuttin & kuttin until the pain went away & when I awoke from a dream I often wished were true the pain disappeared.

Good night..
Ps: updated look koming soon!

R.I.P DOLLA aka BUCC

IM MISSIN YU ALREADY & YU KNOW WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!

WATCH OVER ME BUCC! luv lil sis

definition of fly.

LEFT ME SPEECHLESS

enjoy the new finds..

..until next time..

peace&love

ON THE STREETS IN LA

A vintage dark yellow cardigan, with an American Apparel V-neck, dark Hudson jeans, an H&M scarf, Steve Madden gladiator sandals, and a Marc Jacobs wallet.

OHHH how i LOVEEE FASHION

PURELY FASHION

BOMBFLY!

NEW MUSIC PPL: DizZyaNa

So basically, the homie has been workin extra hard & putting in some major time with his new mix tape! YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO HIS MUSIC!!! I mean, the kid has skills.. and im not just saying this because hes the homie.. I'm saying this because this is oh sooo true! ANYHOW, download the music.. and let me know what you think. His word skills are sick.. :)

..until next time..

peace&love

and they say..

& they say everything in the dark comes to light. Well, at 7am its still dark & I still feel everything from my past huanting me. I'm not ashamed of my past nor scared of it.. Just help me understand why at 7am I get the thoughts of "what if".. And I try not to question the past as the present nor the present as the future. Yet sometimes (rarely) will I have these unaswerable questions. So I just sit and wonder to myself and let the time go by.

Until next time..

Peace&love

Ps:
I will be posting some fresh music from a friend of mine.

it's been a minute.

so im up and im thinking, what is it that has me all baffeled in the mind.. what am i seriously getting out this "situation" this .. this "thing" we call a "relationship" .. i mean .. one minute we're super kewl and the next its like we dont know eachother. is it me? am i not asking questions that has logical answers to them?.. i mean idk what to do anymore .. and for some odd reason ... some very ODD reason, i continue to stick it out and just see where this can go..

im doing so good, here in ATL.. i really am.. im staying focused.. im gettin what i want (for the most part) and im doing things other than sit around and worry about what fit to wear to the next function.. i mean thats never a bad thing but it is when thats the only thing yure doing with yur life.. idk, i guess i can say im proud of myself for once and i appreciate all that was installed in me from all the ppl who took the time to mold me as i was growing and even correct some mistakes as i am now .. i really appreciate it ..

theres just something about ATL that made me hate it so much and when i say hate i literally mean HATE .. GREATLY DISPISE!but now that im back.. more mature, more of an adult there was nothing really i could say bad about this place.. it was never the place.. moreso the people who remained here.. theyre such bottom feeders.. like .. idk .. the worst word possible to describe someone and thats them.. so immature, so young minded, so petty and childish .. the games got old by the minute. im happy i didnt stay here for the years i was in LA.. hm, speaking of which .. im missing it .. but not missing it to the point where im crying over it.. idk when i go back i know for fact a great blessing will be there waiting for me to open it .. :)

enjoy the pics.. new hair color!

xxo mwah

hcharlie's angel

while i was out..

I baught a new phone, which means I have a new number due to people stalking me.. Seriously! I love it.. The blackberry 8300 I knw bb has been out and in but before I only had the bb pearl.. Which isn't ish compared to this one hehe..

I'm bloggin from my phone :)

Another thing I did while I was gone, well this is new. I colored my hair blackM pics will be up soon.

Nyt :)

CHARLIE'S ANGELS

U CAN COME PARTY WIT ME ALL WEEKENED EVERY THURSDAY @ FREQUENCY{IN THE UNDERGROUND}, AND FRIDAY @ STUDIO 72{3965 LAWRENCEVILLE HWY}!!! CHARLIE BROWN & CHARLIE'S ANGELS!!!

!im officially a charlie's angel!

A FEW LIKES>> DO YU LIKE?

just saw a few things as I was browsing the internet ..

tell me what yu think .. yes no maybe so .. or down right never?!

SEPHORA!

So today I learned about Sephora! Now I've heard about it pleanty of times before, but never reeally took the time to go into the store and see what they have to offer. Well, today my class took a trip to the mall for an assignment. As we came to a closing on the assignment, a classmate an I walked around and checked some of the stores out. She turned me on to Sephora. At first, I'll be honest, I wasn't the slightest into makeup. I DONT NEED IT. BUT, I'm starting to like it. Well, just like the peal on polish they have now, she introduced me to the peal on eyeshadow... comes in a box of 4 sets for $25.. NOT BAD RIGHT?! I couldn't find a picture of it on their site however, it is found in their stores. I feel in love today!

this was really kewl.. it's this sleek and portable shaving system is all you need to get smooth, stubble-free legs comparable to a professional hair-removal treatment. Get ready to go bare!

another thing im falling in love with.. EYELASHES.. this are so sexy, they just change an outfit completely .. idk why never wore them before lol.. Deluxe Lash Kit - Black Quickly and easily apply these false lashes with one hand and no mess. The contoured tip of this handy tool provides the perfect placement of these super sexy lashes and also removes them with ease. The soft, antibacterial storage stand retains the natural lash curve.Set includes Lash Placement Set, one set of black lashes, and glue.To Apply:Using the soft applicator tip, gently grasp lashes at the lash line. Apply a thin line of lash adhesive to the lash band. Let dry a few seconds until tacky. Close eyelid. Gently press the soft-tipped applicator just above natural lashes.To Remove:Gently grasp the false lashes just above the lash band. Gently pull from the inside, working outward to remove the lash. Store lashes on storage stand.

I've always liked eyeshadow.. but never really wore it to much.. and now I'm just wanting to buy so much so i can wear it everyday almost .. i love being a girl .. Smokin' Eyes... What it is:A kit that delivers a sexy eye and brow makeover.What it does:Benefit Smokin' Eyes... has everything a gal needs to create sexy, smoky "after hours" eyes and perfectly groomed brows in no time. With the blendable shades and a step-by-step lesson, even makeup-phobes can smoke it out like pros. When the sun goes down, this smoldering eye kit comes out to play!This set includes:- 3 Eyeshadows- Smokin' Liner- Brow Zings in Light- EyeBright- Tweezies- Fluff Shadow Brush/ Hard Angle Brush

Here are some video clips.. ENJOY!

Dear ME

dear me,

just felt as though i should write this for me to look back on someday.. im feeling a lot different now-a-days.. i see things in a different light, a more mature prospective.. im understanding the wants and needs.. the expected and least expected .. im understanding life and im seeing the changes im making as im growing up in this crazy world. well this is all i had to say..

just when yu least expect something, yur life changes in a major way.. & whether or not yu think yure mentally capable of dealing wit wudev the situation is, yu have to deal wit it & theres no running away from it. responsibility is a big part of our lives. i have no more room to complain, i take everything as a blessing & a lesson. Im a full time student; i go to school faithfully everyday up at 7 there by 8:45 & out at 4:30pm.. i work everyday.. never taking breaks.. & now, i have two liddle girls to take care of, & of course it's only right, theyre my God daughters. im going to put my all into raising them correctly & teaching them things i had to learn on my own. Life is a one time thing, don't take anything for granted. Thats my lesson of the day.

WHiLE i WAS G0NE: PiKS.

As I was taking a liddle break from the world I made a big change with myself .. I like it.. Takes time getting use to .. but hey .. wudev .. It's me or nothing, flaws and all .. lol .. (for those of yu who don't like short hair)

DID ANYONE MISS ME?

THE RETURN!

So it is .. 12:24 am.. I'm studying .. (i find that i retain the best information when it's really late).

I have been gone for quite some time & I think it would be quite the pleasure for me to fill you all in .. OMG IVE MISSED YOU ALL SO MUCHHHH! lol.. however i enjoyed my break!

Thank you all for commenting the post! Hope you enjoyed everything lol ..

Hm, lets see.. March 2nd I started work! (Doc Green; salad bar & grill)..

March 5th, I started school! (Empire Beauty & Cosmetology School)..

I was considering getting this truck, however, my mother is getting it instead & I am getting a VW Passat =] yayyy me!

I'm learning so much in school it's ridiculous.. I never knew there was so many interesting things within the field of "cosmetology' ..

and before you all go and judge me.. understand this.. I am an Esthetician.. a specialist in the beautification of the skin and body. I do not ONLY style hair, I engage in facials, nails, eyebrows, the care of skin, etc.. Before you judge me & my decisions.. YES I will & can make a living off of hair.. believe me, it's a high market & it's in high demand. Am I making a living off of it ONLY? NO, my goal is to become a well rounded stylist..

PLZ PPL DO NOT JOCK MY STYLE lol .. jp Im clearly fine with you becoming motivated off of my ambitions =] ..

The program that I am in will last me 11 months.. and then once I've graduated I will go to State Board and preform certain procedures in front of them as they critique. I will also take a written test there in front of them.

Following along with receiving my Masters in Cosmetology, I will then go to a fashion school where I will obtain my Bach in fashion. =] get my drift?

A stylist is not only one thing. Fashion is not only clothes.

I want to be fashion stylist capable of styling in all ways, forms, & fashions. I want to be able to do facials, make-up, hair, dressing "styling" a person, doing their eye brows.. ect .. ect! I want to be WELL ROUNDED! The more you are able to do, the more you will accessed and get paid =]

I will post pictures later on.. maybe tomorrow or some time before Monday!

ps.

i've been working so hard.

i go to school full time 9am-4:30 pm

then work.. not every day but 9 times out of 10 every day

& i go until closing .. IM WORKING HARD! & IM FOCUSED!

until next time..

peace&love

BREAKING NEWS!

So as you all may know, I was taking a break.. well.. I planned on it.. Until I couldn't help but notice the sounds that I heard outside my window when I woke up this morning. It didn't sound like rain.. because that's the sound that put me to sleep last night.. & it wasn't the sound of the wind blowing the leaves that were laying around either. This sound was a sound of its own, as any, yet this sound was soft.. loud.. idk it was just it's own thing.. I can't really compare it to anything or actually describe it. Anyhow, I'd like to introduce you to REAL snow in ATLANTA, GA.. in MARCH!!!! note this is the first time (in my life) that I've ever seen it snow this hard, and this heavy, & actually stick.. my sister has to get the snow off of her car.. I feel like I'm back at home (Chicago).. well, it's not snowing that hard but it's hard for Atlanta.

ps. im going back on my break.. i just thought i should post this before it stopped and i become mad at myself for not taking the pictures. =] ..until next time..

~peace&love~

OVERRLY DUMB BORED ON FB LASTNIGHT; lmao

Jayron Afshar at 6:49am February 28
lmfao ahahahah "what would jesus do?" omg ahahan bitch u look bored makin all these videos ahahn fyi roxy lives out here now.. so dont try to make to go bacc.n ny is gonna be dumb poppn.. but my flight doesnt stop in atl =(bitch those numbers are notifications u dumb fuccwhat a waste of ur lifewaiitttt know what i jus remembered.. "yea im sorry my daddy was dark"lmfao ahahhaha

Jacinda Travis at 11:38am February 28
ahahahahahahahahahaha omg that was so funny! llmaoooooo yu suck .. why doesnt your flight stop here

Roxy Wales-Walden at 12:09pm February 28
you r a fuxking fool!!!! the end!!! lol ahahahahmm...get a life and 2nite go to club crucial!!! thats shit be poooopppiiin!!!! lolwell and it jerks♥ROXy♥

Jacinda Travis at 12:45pm February 28
lmaooo.. =] hehehe.. its soooo sad roxy it really is.. where did my life go. its like i turn 35 in two seconds.. lol

mann down; CODE RED!

staying away from the blogging for a while.. when i return, whenever that may be i will be sure to update you all .. i'll def keep reading your blogs, may not leave comments.. just bc i feel the need to be silent for a while .. im half awake typing this.. and one things on my mind.. [him]..

util next time..

~peace&love~..

ps.. i'll leave yu with this..

word of the day:

TIME

n, : the system of those sequential relations that any event has to any other, as past, present, or future; indefinite and continuous duration regarded as that in which events succeed one another

WORD OF THE DAY..

Ladies, ladies, ladies..

if there isn't one thing people (excuse me a guy*) can't stand is a nosy female.
im sure your mothers raised you better (& i speak to no one particularly)..
im just making a statement.. there is nothing more UNattractive than a loud, ghetto,
rude, "stank" attitude female. HELLOO. thats a turn OFF.. & you wonder why you cant keep a "man" well honey thats why.. whether youre a hoe or a respectful young lady.. if you are loud, ghetto, rude, "stank" attitude and whatnot.. you will quickly loose whomever it is you have.
its better to been seen, rather than heard [FIRST].. and with that said..

the word of the day:

obstreperous
adjective, : Noisy or unruly.

Demanding? Naa Just Requesting.

This particular post was requested. Im speaking to you & i hope you fully understand me..

(lemme clear my throat)

you see when i open my eyes i want to smile

and when they close to reopen

i want to smile.

when i breath

i want that fresh breath of air to be givin to me

because you went deep to put it there..

what i want?

to make someone feel the same as me

to feel like that never ending question,

yeah that "why" question, to finally be answered.

and im sitting here listening to your music & whennn...

i thought i had writers-block.. the sound of your voice cleared it away.

what i want in a guy you inquire?

i want him to be my NyQuil,

my Dayquil.

could he possibly be my Tylenol..

relieve my pain, sooth my muscles,

clear my headaches away.. ?

would that be to much to ask.

what i want in the next guy..

well they say the next is the best.

could you make me regret not meeting you soona..

and i apologize if i confuse ya..

but...

i want you to fill that void..

put the piece where its suppose to be..

& make me feel like another woman..

make my make-believe become real life fantasies..

oh so now its about me & my needs..

well give me time to clear my throat so i can speak..

someone like you.. someone of your character seems fictional.. but you are oh so real

and thats what i want.. some one to be an asshole ya know; check me when i "oops i fukd up"

someone to give me that "ooo yeaa" biting my lip.. no really biting my tongue because i said i could handle it..

aha playing the big girl role.. someone to pull my hair,

get liddle aggressive .. get me a liddle scared..

but remember what i want is for a guy to be able to make believe again.. to take me to "we're only connecting as.. we're only connecting .. only connecting as. us. are you willing to learn..?"

there. for once i spoke up.. & this is what i want..

ENJOY!

until next time..

~peace&love~

LIFE LESSON

I was talking to my sister today about this situation that occurred between my best friend, her sister, and myself. I'd love to tell the whole story, however, that would be extremely to long and it might confuse you all. Sooooo, long story short.. I def learned a lesson today..

3 values to live by:

*there are principals that we as people should learn, understand, and follow.

*there are people who will be in your life for a second, a minute, and an hour.

*there are 3 types of people you will come across.. your reason, your season, and your life time.

I've learned that no matter how long a friendship has been, there is always be an end to the fun. I have learned that no matter what the situation is at hand, you always need to be the bigger person. I have also learned that, you know who your true friends are when you come into a situation and it isn't handled correctly, a person cannot sit down and talk to you one on one like a young adult & if there is a person (or persons) that cannot complete the task at hand, then they just weren't meant to be in your life & the friendship isn't worth fighting for. I will never beg for a friendship (keep in mind) however, I WILL fight for one when I believe it's truly worth it. Just thought to add this as well, you will find strength each time you cry, & life is like a car you have your side mirrors to keep you from getting into "accidents", you have your seat belt to keep you safe, & lastly you have your rear view. With your rear view you are allowed to look back: but only for a second at a time, because if you dwell on the past (whats behind you) you will not be able to steer straight and keep focus on whats in front of you.

WORDs OF THE DAY:

PRINCIPLE

noun, : guiding sense of the requirements and obligations of right conduct: a person of principle

FRIENDSHIP

noun, : the state of being a friend; association as friends: to value a person's friendship.

LOYALTY

noun, : the state or quality of being loyal; faithfulness to commitments or obligations

RESPECT

noun, : esteem for or a sense of the worth or excellence of a person, a personal quality or ability, or something considered as a manifestation of a personal quality or ability: I have great respect for her judgment.

HONESTY
noun, : the quality or fact of being honest; uprightness and fairness.
truthfulness, sincerity, or frankness

until next time..

~peace&love~

a bit of poetry pt2.. WTH;

wth; these feelings i have are unexplainable

i feel as though my mind is moving so fast

when my heart has yet to play catch up

where does my heart sit; 

the left of breast 

or behind my vision

thought i could have it all

do i really have to choose

theres nothing on the line but my emotions

youre mental explosions are domestic 

as of now we're living off of impulse 

and idk if this makes sense to you 

but at the end of the day it is what it is 

and right now what is this?

wth; i cant sleep confused as a day

with clouds looking as if its going to rain

& the suns shining so bright 

its hurting me, it wasn't suppose to be this way

where did we go wrong? my ipod plays

wth.. 

& i say i will play by the book

but wheres the book for me to see what to do

when the day changes so does the page 

and i have yet to turn one,

in the front of my mind i have everything perfectly planned out

but as usual its the depths of my hearts where the real choices are to sleep

and maybe my intellectual thought process is above and beyond yours but 

thats something i can't help.. and im still attracted to you because of our differences 

and right now i have no direction, im letting my fingers do the writing im just watching

so bare with me if you have yet to understand where i am going with this. but wth..

ENJOY!

i made a post the other day saying i would follow some new rules.

but i've seem to forgotten, i live life on the edge. i don't play by the rules.

so for now on im just posting .. fashion, poetry, thought/emotions, yu knw the reg.

a bit of poetry pt 1.

sometimes in life yu come across an unknown love

the kind that makes yu rush

makes yu wonder the 7 wonders

the simpliest thought of touch by a person

the bittering, arguing, & cursing

all the love, pain, heaven, & hell

you stick around wishing for the better

WELL...

sometimes in life yu come across an unknown love

& when yure really thinking,

yure thinking yure in love

get ready for this.

..LOVES NOT READY FOR YOU..

THOUGHT 1

Now I know I'd be probably in the wrong if I did this, however, my attitude is tattooed.. which means it's permanent, so i guess we should address it huh! Usually, I'd already curse the person out.. BUT this time I won't .. I wouldn't be gaining anything .. so I will just let it go.. KARMA is a bigger BITCH than I.. so I clearly have nothing to worry about.. ENJOY!

dj (2:06:46 PM): ddont call the #404
dj (2:06:52 PM): anymore
ms FENDi BBy (2:06:55 PM): um. okay, why
dj (2:07:16 PM): Y because i just said so
dj (2:07:21 PM): That's why
ms FENDi BBy (2:07:44 PM): i guess. thats sus. but iight.

like if yu just got this random a* aim from someone.. and all yu want to know is why.. now keep in mind, it's a person you *use* to talk to.. and *barely* speak to anymore. this person does nothing for me in or out of my life.. so either way idc.. just want to know yur thoughts..

EYE CATCHERS

SO you want to go out and just don't know what to wear. You see some things that catches your eye, however, you don't want to look like every other female prancing around in their stiletto. Well.. I don't mind helping you out.. Here are some eye catchers that stuck with me .. enjoy.

Ladies, you don't have to go out "trying" to out dress the other females by wearing the shortest, or the tightest, the most see-through, or reviling dress possible. Guys like when it's simple, elegant, and keeps a secret.. (the whole idea is to keep them guessing; yu dnt have to put it all out there) Well.. hope yu like what I thought were the eye catchers of the day.

WORD OF THE DAY..

Before I post my word of the day.. i just thought to entertain you all with a free style video from a few of the homies.. ENJOY!

Word of the Day:

carberator
noun, : one who gives another sh*t for eating carbohydrates

until next time..

~peace&love~

Facebook Talk

lol. i love when i get comments on my status that turns into convo's.. =]

Jacinda Status: Tell me, who I have to be to get some reciprocity. 2:45pm

Tyler Curry at 2:52pm February 21
cinda!

Jacinda Travis at 2:53pm February 21
hey girl hey! whats up doll

Tyler Curry at 2:55pm February 21
nm how u been?

Jacinda Travis at 2:55pm February 21
oh wait yu were telling me who i have to be. yeah that's a tid bit challenging at this moment. idk who she is anymore. how have yu been .. where the hell are yu.. i've been home and have not seen yu seen everybody else minus yu.

Jacinda Travis at 2:55pm February 21
ive been good though.=]

Tyler Curry at 3:02pm February 21
shitt i been chillen ready to get away from these childish ass brookwood bitches.

Jacinda Travis at 3:06pm February 21
now idk who yu might be talkin about but i def feel that. but that is high school for yu.. yu learn who yur true freinds are & who the fake ones might be. yu'll live though. what doesn't kill yu makes yus trongers.. mentally! what else is new..

Tyler Curry at 3:09pm February 21
umm..chillen really just makin moves everyweeked.we getting up next weekend k?

Jacinda Travis at 3:10pm February 21
i hear yu on that note. yea girl that's fine i will send yu my number in a message lol can't have everyone knowin the celly lol

Tyler Curry at 3:11pm February 21
ook.


So this kid request to be my friend, I accept, we conversed. As we were getting deeper into our conversation he said to me.. [let me side track] now I was speaking to one of my fellow bloggers last night before turning myself into bed, and he was telling me the same thing. Guess if I begin to hear something more than once (on a positive note) I should believe it.. anyhow.. this kid on facebook said to me.. & this is how our convo went..

2:35pmSage
oh ok
well damn Jacinda it seem to me like u got da whole package
2:36pm Jacinda
lol. what do you mean (thanks)
2:36pmSage
looks, funny, smart, goals.
2:37pm Jacinda
aw thanks. i try .. i try really hard. i don't want to have to depend on someone else and be a mess when im old in age i want to already be to the point where i can just live and until then im working hard for it
but yu too.
2:38pmSage
i appreciate dat. my pops always taught me to paper chase not skirt chase but i might change up now.
2:39pm Jacinda
lose money chasing females never lose females chasing money.. but i feel what yur sayin.. it's ok to take a break lol
2:40pmSage
lol

I appreciate it greatly, when people I don't know share their complimenting thoughts towards me.. idk maybe it's just me but it really makes my day, evening, & night. I'd like to believe it's healthy =].

LEARNiNG NEW WAYs..

I'm getting into this new thing.. where I'm changing the way I post.. I mean I will continue to express my thoughts, however, I'm adding my fashion tips: do's & don'ts.. whats hot & whats not.. which includes hair, clothes, make-up, shoes, accessories, etc.

Call it a Schedule if You Must..

Mondays:

word of the day**,

thoughts (including poems)**,

things i did or want(ed) to do,

eye catchers**

Tuesdays:

word of the day**,

thoughts (including pictures)**,
things i did or want(ed) to do,

eye catchers**

Wednesdays:

word of the day**,

things i did or want(ed) to do,

eye catchers**

Thursdays:

word of the day**,

completely post whatever i may feel,

eye catchers**

Fridays:

word of the day**,

completely post whatever i may feel,

FAB FINDS**

eye catchers**

make-up tips**

Saturdays:

word of the day**,

word on twitter**,

word of facebook**

Sundays:

word of the day**,

No post. anything interesting will be posted on the following day (Monday)

I will be following this "schedule" as strictly as possible, so bare with me. =]

** indicates topics that will be continuously posted; in other words, these are topics that you are more than likely to find on my blog on those days.. no topic will be repeated!

with the above stated.. I'd like to introduce you all to the FIRST word of the day!

Word of the Day:
cleaverage
verb, : To affect a man's decision making process by wearing a low necked dress.

until next time..

~peace&love~

BY THE WAY.. SHOW MY HOMEGIRL SOME BLOG LOVE & BECOME A FOLLOWER!

HER NAME IS AMBER & SHE'S RATHER INTERESTING..
SHE IS A GREAT WRITER (IF I MUST SAY SO MYSELF)

THANKS & ENJOY!

click the picture: it's a link

Perfect Stranger

I was reading on this kids blog today. and I saw a posting that caught my eye.. it was titled: PERFECT STRANGER .. it was a great read. As usual. Im signed on myspace, facebook, twitter, flypeoples, and other sites that has me addicted.. he sends me a message saying thanks for the follow & I told him no problem, don't be a stranger.. as we got further along with our conversation we exchanged screen names.. continuing out conversation on aim we then found out how small of a world we live in.. I came to the realization: what a perfect stranger he is. Now, I guess you'd have to read his post on the PERFECT STRANGER to fully understand. I mean his bday is 3 days after mine (though he is 2 yrs older than me) he is located in the same city as me (which is a rather small one) & as I see it, we're both into fashion. He's adorable. I mean really cute. & I find talking to him rather interesting. I'm cute & adorable and ppl find me interesting. & we're both assholes (hehe: he can't see me being one because i have a cute liddle babyface)..(here's a secret: he wants to be like me when he grows up) hehe.. how cute right? I know. lol ;] well it's dinner time and my stomach is gnawing on my back lol... ENJOY!

ps:

he's my perfect stranger ;]

Relaxing.. Listen..

So there's this kid who I find oh so interesting.. I mean, he's really different.. though his story isn't my business to share.. however, his music is.. it's so smooth and relaxing.. i swear i listen to every song he has sent me everyday & night.. idk.. it just takes over my mind.. relaxes me and makes me think.. he's very chill.. and goofy.. wish i recorded us on ichat.. =] he's silly.. any ways.. click the link and just listen... Weekend Lovers .. his blog .. his myspace

be sure to become his follower on his blog.. and keep up with him and his music!

im telling yu, yu won't regret it.. i promise!

MMm. Love Triangle

Now everyone knows im one for the gossip. Oh how I live off of it. lol. It keeps me going! So as usual.. I was browsing the interesting reads on MEDIATAKEOUT.COM and I stumbled across a rather interesting post. Kanye West new bomb chick is in fact into GIRLS (studs).. I guess this makes them an even BOMBER couple! If I must say so myself.. to read the rest and see more photos click here. My only question is, are they still together & how does that make Kanye feel.. (what are his views) ENJOY!

New Changes

Made a few changes to the blog, hope you all enjoy.. notice that the music is a lot calmer ;]

I had to take it back on a lot of the tracks.. hehe..

anyhow, i was in the car last night driving around looking for a mc donalds that was open at 2/3 am.. lol.. couldn't find out.. i thought they all were 24hrs. guess not. lol.. but this song came on and i went crazy lol. like.. it took me way back and i just bursted out singing like i was alicia keys or somebody..

so.. song of the week is: LOVE -musiq soulchild

Since Everyone Else is..

Since everyone else is posting blogs on other people (& theirselves) applying makeup, I figured I might as well too. So I came across her vblog (youtube) and found that she's really good at this make up thing. lol. and I like her hair cut!.. anyhow check the video out. and her blog/twitter. Shes pretty kewl.

WOW.

As I was doing my daily browse through blogs I follow..

I came across this rather interesting post.

& I had to share it with my readers.. so here it is..

EXIBIT A: RIHANA.. DAMN.. WHOEVER LEAKED THESE WILL LOSE THEIR JOB!
ON THE BRIGHT SIDE.. AT LEAST WE KNOW WHAT SHE REALLY LOOKED LIKE..
AND THE PHOTO EDITED PICTURES HAVE NOTHING ON THE REAL PICTURE.. LMAO!

SO ARE THEY LIKE THE BOMBEST COUPLE?

THEY HAVE TO BE! MOVE OVER J & B

this post was found on banq! blog. besure to check it out.

it's a great read!

FOREVER 21: FAB FINDS pt1

im thinking i want to start doing this every so often.. hm.. how about every friday (possibly).. yeah.. FRIDAYS FAB FINDS =] sounds good to me.. enjoy..

TOPS:

DRESSES:

OUTERWEAR:

JEANS:

BOTTOMS:

TOPS: 12.50 - 13.50

DRESSES: 15.15

OUTERWEAR: 15.50

JEANS: 12.50 - 14.50

BOTTOMS: 13.50

FRIDAYS FAB FINDS ALL UNDER 20 DOLLARS. ENJOY!