Feb 1, 2009

02.01.09

SORRY ITS BEEN A WHILE SINCE I LAST POSTED.. BEEN JUST FOCUSED I GUESS.. IDK

ANYWAYS.. I HAVE A QUESTION .. MAYBE YOU CAN ANSWER IT..

I HAVE THIS THING WHERE IM KEWL WITH THE EX BOO'Z RIGHT; NOW I LEARNED TO JUST NOT BE AND LET THEM BE A THING IN THE PAST .. CONTINUING ON,...

EX BOO1 AND EX BOO2 KNOW EACHOTHER (NO, THEY AREN'T FRIENDS)

SINCE BEING BACK HOME I JUST STARTED KICKIN IT WITH EX BOO1 WHICH IS KEWL BECAUSE HE UNDERSTANDS THERES A NEW BOO IN THE PICTURE AND WE AREN'T ANYTHING MORE OR LESS THAN FRIENDS; AT THE SAME TIME HE TOLD ME "I'LL GIVE DUDE A CHANCE BUT WHEN HE F* UP & HE WILL F* UP, I'LL BE RIGHT HERE WAITING TO PICK UP THE PIECES." THATS KEWL AND ALL BUT IDK.. I LEARNED MY LESSON ON "ATTEMPTING" TO GET BACK WITH THE EX BOO WHILE IN LA.. SO ANYHOW EX BOO1 UNDERSTANDS AND WE'VE BEEN KICKIN IT FOR LIKE THE PAST HM 3-4 DAYS (KEEP THAT IN MIND)

NOW EX BOO2 AND I ENDED ON A REALLLLLLY BAD NOTE SO I LET HIM DO HIM AND GLADLY WENT ON WITH MY LIFE (AS NORMAL FOR SOME) WELL JUST A FEW DAYS AGO HE HAD CAME ACROSS MY PAGE AND HIT ME UP LIKE WHATS UP BOO WOO WOO WOO .. NOW OF COURSE BECAUSE I HAVE A NEW BOO I WAS LIKE HOLD UP IM NOT YOUR BOO #1 AND TWO HI HOW ARE YOU SO ANYWAYS WE MADE PLANS TO KICK IT AT HIS HOUSE FOR THE SUPER BOWL.. ME HIM AND A FEW OF THE HOMIES FROM SKEWL.. SO AFTER HALF TIME WE WENT FOR A WALK I GUESS TO JUST TALK ABOUT WHATEVER BEEN GOIN ON IN OUR LIVES SINCE I BEEN IN LA AND HE BEEN HERE.. ANY WHO.. WE WALKED AND HE WAS LOWKEY TRYIN TO FORCE FEELINS THAT WERENT THERE BY SAYIN THINGS LIKE I LOVE YU AND TELL ME YU LOVE ME (WELL I DNT) AND LIKE I GUESS HE WUDNT ACCEPT THAT SO HE LIKE TRIED TO KISS ME AND I GOT OUT THE WAY.. I WASNT FOR IT .. NEVER CHEATED NEVER WILL (THAT SHIT HURTS) WE STARTED PLAY FIGHTIN AND I PUSHED HIM AWAY KUZ HE WAS GETTIN TO CLOSE AND AS I DID THAT I CALLED HIM EX BOO1 NAME.. BUT ONLY BECAUSE EX BOO1 AND EX BOO2 WERE FORCING FEELINGS THAT JUST ARENT THERE ANYMORE.. AND IT HAD ME THINKIN LIKE THIS NIGGA IS AKTIN LIKE EX BOO1..

NOW HERES MY QUESTION: I KNOW IM IN THE WRONG FOR CALLIN A PERSON SOMEONE ELSES NAME, I'D BE MAD TOO, HOWEVER.. HE SHOULDVE NEVER BEEN TRYIN TO FORCE FEELINGS THAT ARENT THERE ANYMORE AND WILL NEVER BE.. IS THIS A SITUATION WHERE I JUST LET GO COMPLETELY OF HIM, LIKE HIM OUT OF MY LIFE IN ALL, AND KEEP HIM IN THE PAST AS HE'S BEEN THESE LAST 3 YRS OF ME BEING LA? I MEAN BECAUSE I BELIEVE IN BEING FRIENDS WITH THE EX BOO'S NEVER KNOW WHEN THEY MIGHT COME IN HANDY.. WHEN YU NEED SOMEONE TO TALK TO OR JUST KICK IT WITH..

~PEACE&LOVE~

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