01.26.09

"but just cuz im cryin yall, don’t mean that im the victim, it just means I was scared to let him go cuz some other chick might get him. & that was my fault because it was my decision. I should have never put my heart in my minds position. but I couldn’t shake him, he was like a bad habit. & all this for a nigga that was just average. doin average nigga shit.. like talkin out the side of his neck & thinkin with his dick. but I must admit he was the one I wanted to commit. so either I wasn’t livin up to my potential or I was just an average chick. but I choose to believe I was a woman caught up in a feelin both physical and emotional, who was way too willing to give her all to a man. & though it may sound stupid, id do it all again. except this time for a man that likes me back, & not a man I call my friend…"

*this was on my friends away.. idk who wrote it, but i like it..

GUESS I'VE BEEN LOOKING INTO THE EYES OF SOMETHING THAT WILL NEVER BE.. THAT LOVE THAT GROWS AND BUILDS THAT BEAUTIFUL TREE.. SOMETHING OH SO WORTHY.. BUT I GUESS IT WAS NEVER MEANT TO BE.. DO YOU BLAME ME FOR MY UNLOVING ABILITY?? MY TRUE CHARACTER HIDES BEHIND IT'S SHADOW.. SCARED ITS TO STRONG FOR HIM TO HANDLE.. I SLEPT IN HIS, WOKE UP IN HIS.. BUT THIS MEANT NOTHING.. NOTHING MORE OR LESS THAN WHAT IT WAS OR WHAT IT IS..PROMISED ME SOMETHING WITHOUT THE RING, TOLD HIM PROMISES ARE MEANT TO BE BROKEN.. SO DON'T PROMISE ME ANYTHING UNLESS IT'S SOMETHING YOU MEAN.

*BROKEN_PROMISES* by: me