at the moment i am listening to anthony hamilton.
its raining. there are 3 more days until my 20th bday.
by now i expected to be "wifed" up with a guy who has my undivided attention.
& im not. there air is going on and off (set to auto) in my apartment.
listening to that the rain and this music is keeping me calm.
for a second i was going insane about this one guy who left my house 50 days ago.
& yes that makes me sound a little crazy, however i only know because now he is
incarcerated 45 minutes away from me.
sitting here wondering why he hasn't called or text since the day he left,
comes to find out he was arrested moments after leaving my house.
he's been looking to get in some kind of contact with me.
he did.
the drug of joy ran through my blood stream.
"sometimes in life you run across a love unknown without a reason it seems like you belong" - anthony hamilton.
the rain has stopped.
the air is off.
the music is still playing.
and im sitting in bed alone.
i just want him back, i have a strong feeling he is my other half.
so, i have 5 more months left until i am done with school.
im anxiously waiting for the day to come and a teacher tells me how many hours i have left.
hours that will be completed in a day or two. uggh.
the great feeling of accomplishing yet another task that someone strongly doubted me on.
you want to know a funny thing?
so i have this ex that i once dated in highschool..
not that many years ago lol.
i express to him what i was thinking were my true and final feelings
and you know what he does?
tells me hes not worth my tears.
probably because his heart was somewhere else.
not because he ever done me wrong or was pathetic.
because none of those describe him.
kind of hurts to know that the person you have these types of feelings for
dont have them in return. idk what to think, say, or how to feel about that.
im so lost and confused., but i cant help nor control another persons emotions.
its only right that i learn to let him go.
& i have because im waiting patiently on who i believe is my other half.
& while doing so, i cant let my past get in the way of my possible future.
just my feelings im updating you all on.
hope you enjoyed me sharing my story with you all.
(post updated pics in a few.)
Sep 19, 2009
& THIS IS HOW IM FEELING.
Jul 28, 2009
JUST AN UPDATE
HEYYY EVERYONE, THIS IS JUST AN UPDATE ..
I KNOW IVE BEEN GONE FOR QUITE SOMETIME ..
DIDNT MEAN TO KEEP YOU ALL WAITING ..
ANYWHO, LETS SEE WHATS NEW ..
PAST MY FRESHMAN FINAL EXIT EXAM I AM NOT A SENIOR IN COSMETOLOGY
WHICH MEANS IM CLOSER TO GRADUATING YAYY ME!
HM, ... NEW HAIR STYLE LIKE EVERYWEEK, WELL THATS NOTHING NEW
BASICALLY NOTHING IS NEW LOL.. SCHOOL HOME OUT SCHOOL AND SO ON ..
OHHHHH WAIT,
YEA I MET THIS KID NAMED HOLLYWOOD..
HM, BASICALLY BOMB.
WELL, THERE WILL OF COURSE BE MORE POST FOR NOW ON ...
LETS DO THIS AGAIN SOMETIME,
FENDIIBBY xo.
PS:
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HEY SINCE IVE BEEN GONE SO LONG HOW ABOUT YALL TELL ME WHAT IVE BEEN MISSING
WHATS THE LATEST ON YOU? :)
Jun 20, 2009
have yu ever
Its been a while since I last posted.. Been going through some things & the break was much needed.
Have yu ever been addicted to something with no taste no sound no smell just a soft strong structured feeling just features that would blow you away? Have yu ever been in a room with a person & every time yu make eye contact yu giggle have yu ever felt that liddle tingley feeling inside when being around someone yu halfway knw but knw somehow yu have the most feelings for.. Have yu ever wondered what it is that cause a person to fall for another even when they half way knw each other.. Is that what "love at first site" means?..
Schools been good lately there are 3 or 2 more weeks until I'm out on the floor working with clients & giving my cards out to possibly new clients.. I kant wait! Everything is just falling into place & I knw this is happening bc I have 3 angels watching over me!
Short poem:
For a second I almost got to the point of no return.. Just kept kuttin & kuttin until the pain went away & when I awoke from a dream I often wished were true the pain disappeared.
Good night..
Ps: updated look koming soon!
May 19, 2009
R.I.P DOLLA aka BUCC
IM MISSIN YU ALREADY & YU KNOW WE WILL ALWAYS LOVE YOU!
WATCH OVER ME BUCC! luv lil sis
May 3, 2009
Apr 17, 2009
ON THE STREETS IN LA
OHHH how i LOVEEE FASHION
NEW MUSIC PPL: DizZyaNa
So basically, the homie has been workin extra hard & putting in some major time with his new mix tape! YOU HAVE TO LISTEN TO HIS MUSIC!!! I mean, the kid has skills.. and im not just saying this because hes the homie.. I'm saying this because this is oh sooo true! ANYHOW, download the music.. and let me know what you think. His word skills are sick.. :)
..until next time..
peace&love
